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[Jan. 17th, 2005|03:58 am] |
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1. Name: wiltbriteshadow?
2. Age: 21
3. Height: 5.3
4. Weight (optional!!!): 126
5. Type of ED (ana, mia, etc..) ana & mia
6. Diet pills you take/have taken: Hoodia Slim0
7. How long you've been ana/mia/etc: year and a half
8. Post a few (or one) picture of yourself (optional!!!)
mark the ones that apply to you
I AM -
[ ] anorexic
[X] bulimic
[X] living off diet pills
[ ] hungry
[ ] thirsty
[X] drinking something
[ ] under 100lbs
[ ] wanting to be "under-130-by christmas"
[ ] starving yourself
[ ] participating in a fast with other people
PEOPLE -
[ ] ask if i'm anorexic/bulimic
[ ] call me fat
[ ] say i'm too skinny
[ ] say i'm ugly
[X] say i'm pretty
[ ] spread rumors about me
[ ] force me to eat
[ ] say i eat too much
[ ] wish i'd stop
[X] don't know i'm ana/mia
I WISH -
[X] i was THIN
[X] i had a better body
[ ] i didn't have to eat
[X] i could controll myself
[X] i was under 120lbs
[ ] i could avoid food
[ ] i could hide what i am
[X] i wasnt fat
[ ] i was pretty
[ ] i could stop
I LOVE -
[ ] feeling hungry
[X] seeing a difference when fasting
[ ] shaking
[ ] being weak, becuase i know i'm losing weight
[X] losing weight
[ ] being ana/mia
[X] green tea
[ ] diet pills
[ ] being able to turn down food
[X] feeling good about myself |
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| better day... |
[Jan. 11th, 2005|09:57 am] |
| [ | mood |
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| [ | music |
| | kelly clarkson? | ] |
so i had actually a reall good day yesterday....to all friends of ana and mia...let me tell you that i started taking an apetite supressor called hoodia slim...it suppress the apetite and doesnt contain ephedra its suppose to be like amazing it had all these specials on like 60 mintues and etc. so yeah...its good...i only ate carrots, diet coke, and boiled brocoli and zuchinni....it was a good day...oh and a large coffee from coffee bean...yum! |
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[Jan. 7th, 2005|11:58 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| |  depressed | ] |
| [ | music |
| | sigur ros | ] |
...the tears keep falling...my heart keeps breaking...over a friendship that i never had in the beginning. i was just imagining that what i had was what i needed and depended on and now i have ruined everthing forever. to the point that the person in question commented on how i and my shiet cannot be an accesory in his life anymore. why does this happen to me and why do i keep fucking my life up....crying. |
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| good day....i guess |
[Jan. 6th, 2005|08:50 pm] |
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so...today was the first day of classes...college...whatever...same shiet different grade ya know...so i think i did really good...i had two cups of coffee in the morn (which makes you shiet out all the bad stuff) and a diet coke and like half a bag of pretzls which was like 100 cals...i know...then i had another diet coke at work...then after i did an hour of cardio...running and biking...so hopefully...better days ahead... |
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[Jan. 2nd, 2005|12:54 pm] |
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ahhh!!!! omg....i fucking ate a whole bag of cheetos flaming hot....dammit...i want to killmyself for that...shiet...fuck fuck fuck...to bad they were hella good though....oh wells....i like to start off the whole not eating thing on a monday! |
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[Jan. 2nd, 2005|10:25 am] |
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...fuck im at work...so hung over...need water...very very hungry....errrr....someone drove me home last night which was actually really good because i was in like no condition to drive so i ac tually helpd myself and a lot of people...whatever that was stupid...i dont care nobody does...i made cookies last night...didnt eat them...for the fam...whatever...owwww my headache really hurts...i wish i had some coffee bean...yum...im tired....bye. |
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[Dec. 19th, 2004|10:46 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| |  curious | ] |
| [ | music |
| | beck | ] |
so...im alone...nothing more than usual...of course...but atleast i have my friend champagne here to keep me company..to those of you who view this as a bad thing/sin...i have to say....you dont know...thats it noreally judgement...thereapy and medicine still get me here so if you have the magic potion to not get me here...than thats okay too...but for now...this is what works for me....i have to admit that as a person whose usually consumed by her weight...i have been very much intrigued by the ana sites...not so much as a fan or addict per say...but more so as a person whose looking at it with interest....i mean...this is nothing unususual...but the fact that it involves girls..or is centered around an eating disorder does it take precendencets...fore example...there are like a thousand sites with interest in fandom. or sci fi or whatever may have you but because it is a situation dealing with the word disorder or weight does the world take notice...what if the world did not take notice..would the same emphasis be thre...im playing swiotzerland here i hope you know that...im just wondering how this type of blog arrised...and what is it behind the woman/girls behind it...i am only curious so that i may further understand |
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